Portia DeRossi had a 3 year marriage to sound engineer Mel Mecalfe who left her for her sister-in-law in 1999. That is about cause enough to become a lesbian if ever we heard. She was nearly 30 when she decided to come out of the closet. She explained on a new episode of The Conversation with Amanda de Cadanet that it took her so long simply because she always believed being gay was “strange.”
“I just didn’t want to be a lesbian. I’d never met one for a start and I just thought they were strange and that they hated men and they were very serious and I had these ridiculous images in my head and there were no out celebrities or politicians or anybody that I could look to and go, ‘Oh, I could be like that’,” she explained.
“There was nobody that I could say, ‘I could date her and I want to be like her. I just kind of thought I don’t want to live like this. I don’t have to, I don’t need to, I just shut down the emotional life,” she added.
During the time she struggled with determining whether to come out about her sexuality she gained an eating disorder. She says that food was like a lover, someone that never left her. Like a thought that would always keep me excited, interested and focused. It’s adrenaline,” she confessed.
“Having to hide something like that just ruined me. It really, really killed me,” the actress told Oprah in 2010. “I had a series of mini-heartbreaks throughout my teens because my fantasy of what life could be like with my best friend wasn’t shared with my best friend… It took me until I was about 18 when I realized I had to date other lesbians if I was ever going to fulfill that fantasy.”
Portia de Rossi has been married to Ellen DeGeneres since 2008 and is considered one of the most powerful lesbian individuals in Hollywood to which she told Oprah earlier this year ”I really, honestly think that anybody who is openly gay and visible is powerful,” she told Out magazine earlier this year. “It doesn’t matter what you do, you are impacting people.”
Portia de Rossi Explains Why She Didn"t Want to be a Lesbian
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